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August 25th, 2005

07:16 pm - Still giddy... I don't really write in this, I write in myspace. So this will always be short and sweet. I work tomorrow, which sucks I guess. But after work will be fun...then I work again on Saturday. Kait and my friendship is basically effed, and I heart ice cream. Also I made this new rule where I'm not allowed to cry over a guy for a year!!! I'm pretty sure I can do it. All summer I've cried over a guy like twice. NO MORE! Current Mood: giggly

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August 22nd, 2005

09:51 pm - wowza! I never use this anymore...life is AMAZING though. I like being single...hehe Current Mood: crazy

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March 28th, 2005

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March 16th, 2005

11:49 pm - Kaitlyns results Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||||||||||||| 53% Stability |||| 20% Orderliness |||||||||| 33% Empathy |||||||||||||||| 63% Interdependence |||||||||||| 43% Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 63% Mystical |||||||||| 36% Artistic |||| 16% Religious || 10% Hedonism |||||| 30% Materialism |||||||||| 36% Narcissism |||||| 30% Adventurousness |||||| 23% Work ethic |||||||||||||||| 63% Self absorbed |||||||||||||||| 63% Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||| 63% Need to dominate |||||||||||| 50% Romantic |||||||||||||||| 63% Avoidant |||||||||||| 43% Anti-authority |||||| 30% Wealth |||||||||| 36% Dependency |||||||||||||||| 63% Change averse |||||||||||||| 56% Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Individuality |||||||||||||||| 70% Sexuality |||||||||||| 50% Peter pan complex |||||| 30% Physical security |||||||||||||||||| 76% Food indulgent |||||||||||||| 56% Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 70% Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 63% Vanity |||||||||||| 50% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Female cliche |||||||||||||||||| 76% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com Current Mood: cheerful

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09:03 pm - I'm not happy Today is a bad day...I can't stop crying (which isn't surprising), i dunno I just mess everythign up...I don't want to mess everythign up. I'm trying soo hard...but not hard enough, I can try harder. Because I know it's important enough to me that I can do it. I just wish...it was mutually important, that way we could meet in the middle. But if I have to, ill do all of the meeting. If that's what it takes. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: She will be loved ~ Maroon 5

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March 15th, 2005

10:01 pm I just feel so stuck right now, i cant even explain it, i just feel like people dont understand me or just dont care i guess. And it just makes me feel...like nothing. I think I just care to much about things and I just need to learn to let go, and get over becuase itll never change. People are different they have different ways of expressing themselves. ANd just becuase I dont understand those..."ways" doesnt mean they're wrong. And it doesn't matter because I love we can get through it. Current Mood: more in love than yesterday

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March 14th, 2005

10:08 pm - this thing is creepily right! Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||||||||||||||||| 76% Stability |||| 20% Orderliness |||||||||| 40% Empathy |||||||||||| 43% Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 70% Intellectual |||||||||||| 50% Mystical |||||| 23% Artistic |||||| 30% Religious |||||||||| 36% Hedonism |||||| 23% Materialism |||||||||||| 50% Narcissism |||||||||||| 50% Adventurousness |||||||||||||| 56% Work ethic |||||| 23% Self absorbed |||||||||||||||| 63% Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||| 70% Need to dominate |||||||||||||| 56% Romantic |||||||||||||||| 63% Avoidant |||||| 30% Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 63% Wealth |||||||||||| 43% Dependency |||||||||||||||| 63% Change averse |||||||||||||| 56% Cautiousness |||||||||||| 43% Individuality |||||||||||| 50% Sexuality |||||||||||||| 56% Peter pan complex |||||||||| 36% Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Food indulgent |||||||||||||| 56% Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 63% Paranoia |||||||||| 36% Vanity |||||||||||| 50% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Female cliche |||||||||||||||| 70% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com Current Mood: in love!

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March 6th, 2005

11:03 am - State here we come!!! OKAY I WOKE UP THIS MORNING AND I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED FOR STATE. WE ARE GUNNA KICK MASSIVE BOOTY! I HOPE. OKAY EVEN I AM GUNNA WORK MY ASS OFF AND IM GUNNA HELP EVERYONE ELSE WORK THEIR ASS OFF. okay breath. Anyways we have 21 entries going to state...in case you have no clue what that means...IT'S GOOD. Now we just have to watch our for Ashland and Westview. I'm so excited. I'm gunna plan something at my house before state, the first half will me a speech-a-thon (hehe I made that up) and every room in my house will be for a different type of speech and ill try to get leach and jodi and lori and darren and annette and judy ALL here and we can have one of them in each room, and anyone who wants to come help can...and then the second half we can have a giant party!!! AHHH I'm SO EXCITED!!! hehehe, No I want to take first soooo bad this year...I WANT IT!!! LOl. I dunno why but I do. We need to find some way for Jon, jacob and pat to get pumped also...because they're not! hehe. OKay im gunna go ask my mom if we can have it here. Current Mood: that's me right now!

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March 5th, 2005

07:49 pm - I love guitars Right now I'm at my friend Ryan's house with a bunch of people listening to Thorne play the guitar. I love it when he plays the guitar. It pretty much drives me ca-razy! Lol. Today was pretty laid back, I did some cleaning and then forced thorne to go to the movies with my family. It was funny, he and my dad complained about it the WHOLE time. I guess we did awesome at districts, so now we can go take state (knock on wood). I'm so excited for state. My back hurts. Lol, pretty random. AHHHHH I FUHREAKING LOVE IT WHEN HE FUHREAKING PLAYS THE FUHREAKING GUITAR I WANNA FUHREAKING...something (wink wink). I'm kind of bored right now though im waiting to eat ice cream because i brought some over here. yummy. GOD IM BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Yeah, okay im gunna go sleep or something. GOSH Current Mood: and wanting thorne Current Music: Thorne and Ryan playing the guitar

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March 4th, 2005

11:33 am - School is insanely boring. Right now I am sitting in the journalism room during lunch...I have a life. I was going to go to Riley's house with him to grab something but then I decided to come in here. The fact that I basically only have one class left is relieving...Journalism doesn't count, I have that last period. I think I might go to work and get a massage or something, then go to the club to work out a bit. I may do something with Jessica tonight. Tomorrow I think a bunch of us are going to go to Ryan's but I'm not sure. I think on saturday before we go to Ryan's...if we do. I'm gunna surprise Thorne and make him dinner! Hopefully he doesn't read this...or else it wont be a surprise. There's not really a reason I want to make him dinner, mostly just because he doesn't think I can cook...so I WILL SHOW HIM, I'm gunna cook it ALL BY MY SELF!!! Anyways, This weekend I'm also gunna spend a butt load of time working on homework and getting caught up with all the crap i've missed due to Berkeley and U of O. hehe I made the CUTEST e-mail last night, it took me like an hour...what a loser! Current Mood: calm

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March 3rd, 2005

08:23 pm - getting sick I AM NOT GETTING SICK, I WILL NOT GET SICK. Thorne is sick though...so pretty much, I'm gunna get sick. Lol. Just because we're together a lot of course ;) I just got back from school because we had debate districts tonight, Public debate is still going on...luckily I only had to debate once, I'm going to state! Yeah. Lol, I hope we do good at state this year, that would be so exciting. Riley took me home after the "tourny" and we had a really great talk. "You never stop loving someone, you just learn to live with out them" He said that...it was cute. As much as I love talking I like listening too, maybe I should be a counselor of some sort. Hopefully I'm marry someone rich so that I can be a social worker or a teacher or something. Lol. I'm so relieved that it's almost the weekend, I am probably going to spend Friday doing homework and relaxing, then on Saturday I think I am going to Ryan's. Thorne and I had a good talk the other night and it seemed like it will help a lot of things...I hope so. I love how I feel about him...I love it :) I dunno if I want to go to Prom this year...I mean if my friends go then I'll want to go. But if not then I'll pry just wanna do something with Thorne. Okay well I guess I'm gunna go think about doing homework :/ Current Mood: content Current Music: When you Love someone ~???

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March 1st, 2005

10:57 pm - A small city in Europe I love not being single, I mean I guess I had fun for a while doing the whole "friends-with-benifits-no-strings-attached thing. But God I don't miss it AT ALL. I think I'm starting to get more secure with our relationship and I'm gunna try not to worry as much. I am a big worrier and so it's hard to be with someone because I worry he'll break up with me or change his mind about things. I gotta love him for putting up with it though. I hope we're together for a LONG time...well, i know we will :) School is going fine, I'm really behind though due to Berkeley and U of O, but I'm trying to catch up. I'm fighting to not get sick, but i can feel it coming on. I will not allow myself to get sick...I have too much going on. Getting more sleep would probably help, but that's a lost cause. I don't even know why I stay up so late, it's not like I'm doing anything. Man I'm trying to decide how I feel about that case where the parents want their daughters husband to divorce her because she's in a vagetative state but he wont. I dunno, i mean i don't think they should just keep her like that forever but it does seem somewhat demented that they would just take out her feeding tube and let her starve together. It also seems a bit suspicious that the husband wont divorce her even though he has been living with another woman who he has two children with...odd. Hearing about bad thigns like that makes you think...Like tonight everything is normal and I pry complain/worry about the smallest things. I mean tomorrow I could just get by a car and be dead, it just scares me and really puts things in perspective. OKay...im out. Current Mood: loved Current Music: gimme some kind of sign ~ Brenton Wood

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February 28th, 2005

09:18 pm - blank It's so weird to miss someone that lives ten minutes away. Like four months ago I thought guys sucked and I always went for the worst ones, I'm not quite sure why. It's almost like I liked getting my heart broken or something, funny how that happens. But now I literally have the most perfect guy...but I'm still scared, more so even then I was with the bad guys. Because this one will hurt even more when it ends, because I've never had anyone like him. Like honestly, he says/does things that no one has ever said/done before. It's funny to think that we almost didn't work out, because of me mostly. I almost threw away the best thing that could ever happen to me...ever. Now when I think about that I get this sick feeling in my stomache, it's crazy. It's kinda hard though, becuase he's a typical guy in certain instances as I am a typical girl...and it's hard because I want to be with him all of the time, and sometimes he just needs his space, which i never wanna give him. But I mean if it's for him I can try, I just take it personal sometimes because it seems like he hates me or something...I'm sure I'm over exagerating. We hung out last night and it was great as usual, as long as I am in the same room as him I feel good, everything is perfect usually. I just need to stop with the drama, but I am a girl and recently I have realized most girls like drama. Lol. I hate school, and a lot of people...today I was in the absolute weirdest mood. I can't even explain it, it was crazy. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: My Love ~ Righteous brothers

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February 27th, 2005

11:51 pm - blah blah blah blah blah crazy stuff happened blah blah blah blah someone random imed me blah blah blah blah i never thought id be talkin to them again blah blah i love my boyfriend blah blah blah blah i pretty much have no friends which is somewhat frightening but somewhat not blah blah blah blah blah blah i wanna quite speech blah blah blah i got 3rd at U of O blah blah blah only one person even makes me happy anymore blah blah blah Current Mood: blah Current Music: blah blah blah

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February 14th, 2005

10:13 pm - I heart my boyfriend Tonight was amazingly amazing and i had the most perfect time and ahhh, i'm so lucky. Current Mood: flirty

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February 7th, 2005

07:00 pm - Ahhh... Just got done eating chinese food! I heart chinese food. I made a list of everything I heart today in APUSH, it was fun. I'm in a lot better mood than I was last night, which is great. And tomorrow Thorne is coming over for dinner, which is even greater. I think I'm gunn lay off of him...meaning I can be overwhelming sometimes, getting attached wise. And he's a guy, so I know he most likely doesn't like it...even though he's not like most guys...I think almost all guys share that trait. Debate practice was actually productive today, which was good. I slept through speech class today and got to school at about a quarter to ten, right in time for espanol. I brought Jonathan some banana cake, and then J and I left a half hour early from class to go to the speech room. After that was lunch, then APUSH than journalism. I should probably do my homework soon, Tomorrow I have my stupid classes...meaning Honors English! That class is the most pointless class I've ever had to attend in my life. Is all i do is...talk to robin. like I said...NOTHING TO DO. I'm not really excited for valentines day anymore, i don't even think we're doing anything...oh well. Current Mood: content Current Music: Tom Petty ~ I wont back down

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February 6th, 2005

12:46 am - not so good I just got back from the Linfield Tourny, adam and I did great, we were undefeated and broke to sems...in sems we lost on a 2-1 decision. It's so weird to feel oposite feelings at the exact same time. Like I feel so happy and in like but at the same time i feel like i want to puke becuase my stomache is so nervous (pretty picture huh)? I guess I just need to step back, take a breath and realize this is how it is. I know I'll get used to it...it's definitaly worth getting used to. I mean there are most definitaly more good things than bad, and being me I take EVERYTHING personal and think it's my fault. So I just need to stop doing that before I mess the best thing i've ever had up. The best thing. Ever. Current Mood: sad

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February 1st, 2005

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